Me

[Jackson Rippner]

If you weren't jealous, Seabreeze, I don't think you'd feel like you have to take shots at me every time you talk to me. And you wouldn't edit half your posts. Saw that, Seabreeze. (BROAD GRIN) Nope, I don't own an oceanliner OR a steam ship. HEH. I do have a yacht though that I enjoy on occasion.

How about this- instead of you throwing verbal grenades my way over and over, you tell me what you really want from me. And get specific.

[Seabreeze]

Sometimes I am not permited to say exactly what I mean and I am forced to edit. Yesterday my thoughts were interupted by an unwanted guest whom I disposed of as quickly as possible. What do I want from you? I want to test my limits and yours. Specifics? Not on this forum.

[Jackson Rippner]

You want to test my limits. Well, you already have tested my patience, so I think that's one we can check off the list.

No other specifics, huh? That's too bad. Because this is where we are. I think if you were creative enough, you'd be able to tell me what you want from me without getting us kicked off this forum. I want to connect with all my girls.... sorry-women. (grinning) Hedwigsgal told me exactly what she wanted; and it just so happens that I appreciate that kind of directness from people I interact with. To put it bluntly, I don't have time for bullsh*t. In my line of work, vagueness and games can get you killed. You can either communicate with me like the woman you are, or you can keep up this coy act. Up to you which.

[Seabreeze]

What I need at the moment is some sympathy and understanding both of which may be foreign to you. I've been shot and the pain is horrendous. I don't believe in taking medicine. I know my shoulder will heal but my self esteem has been shattered into a million pieces. To be betrayed my a loyal friend is more than I can bear. Help me, please.

[Jackson Rippner]

Contrary to popular belief, I am perfectly capable of sympathy and understanding. Sorry I didn't get on this sooner. Good thing is, you apparently survived without anyone's help, which I respect. I can identify with the pain of being shot - though I never hesitate to accept whatever medical treatment is necessary. There's enough pain in life without suffering needlessly. Hope you're recovering, Seabreeze - and don't worry about that low self-esteem stuff. I have the feeling you like yourself enough to have gotten over that temporary situation.

[Seabreeze]

I accept medical treatment but not medicine and I prefer alternative treatment rather than western medicine. I believe that unless one experiences suffering, one does not know how to experience true joy and pleasure. As a child I was taught to suffer in silence and I do it quite well, perhaps too well. I'm not worried over my self-esteem, I worry that I've lost the capacity for emotion. I use to be hot blooded and passionate but now I don't know who or what I am.

[Jackson Rippner]

So who was the loyal friend who betrayed you? Kiddo, I wouldn't worry about your lack of emotion. It's all still in there somewhere, you just have to tap back into it. Been in that place before myself and it's not a permanent condition. (GRIN) Of course, I don't know if you like it this way or not. Sounds like not. So fix it. Let yourself be human. Whatever the hell happened to you when you were growing up is way over with, so don't hold onto the sh*tty baggage. Unless you like carrying it. (arching my eyebrow at you)

[Seabreeze]

Perhaps the words "loyal friend "was a poor choice on my part. It was my mentor, the one person in the world who knows the real me and all the secrets I try to hide, it was the only person in the world I trusted and now I am totally alone. I have no wish to seek out revenge. He is old and dying. I don't want nor do I like carrying sh*tty baggage but all I have to do is stand undressed in front of a mirror and stare at my lower back at the scar that started it all.

[Jackson Rippner]

So how did this old guy betray you? Lemme tell you, any time you have someone in your life that knows the real you like you said he did, that's usually someone you want to hold onto. Real connections like that don't come along much in life. Trust me.

Hope your back's not hurting anymore, Seabreeze. I'd rub it for you but not sure you're that kind of girl. (GRIN)

[Seabreeze]

This man trained me, protected me,and I saw him as a surrogate father figure. He sold me out to the highest bidder but I refused the job. That's how I got shot. Now I'm back on my feet, better than ever and more important I am a free agent. I'll decide what, when, where, how and IF I take a job. I always enjoy a back rub. Now you may touch my scar if I can touch yours.

[Jackson Rippner]

Now you're talking. I have more than one scar... so get busy. (BIG SMILE)

[Seabreeze]

Will do.

[emma286]

LOL! I realise this thread ended ages ago - but I must say this is the most hilarious entertaining one I've come across so far. I chuckled all the way through! ;D

Feb 4, 2009 1:12:49 GMT -5 eilish said:

(omg, somebody should so make a Dr. Crane topic like this)

Agreeing with this!

[Seabreeze]

It was a great comedy routine. Let me tell you how it ended ....... badly. I'll never forgive Jacky boy for standing me up. But listen, I am a vengeful woman. Now if Jackson is lurking on this forum I just want to say that I'm sharping my knives. Slice and dice, slice and dice.

[emma286]

I must say that I'm somewhat disappointed to learn that!

Jackson, I really thought you were more of a gentleman than this! One thing that I never had any doubts about - at least up until now - is that you were a man with genuine decorum. Someone who never forgot their manners. Now after hearing all that I don't know what to think!