In statu nascendi (ch.39 up) - sequel to ATTFABH

[fosforito]

Yes they are.

They are from the song "All love can do" from Charlotte Church, taken from the movie "A Beautiful Mind".

Sadly I just got the half of them in my sig b/c of my Jon video. I´ve tried many variations, even resizing the video but I couldn´t get all in, so it´s just half the lyrics.

A Beautiful Mind is a wonderful movie and it reminds me a lot of Jonathan Crane.
And I could imagine Alex would be singing the song to him or whisper the lyrics into his ear while he´s struggling with Scarecrow.

At least this is sth. I would do..

[beyond_beautiful]

fosforito said:

Yes they are.

They are from the song "All love can do" from Charlotte Church, taken from the movie "A Beautiful Mind".

Sadly I just got the half of them in my sig b/c of my Jon video. I´ve tried many variations, even resizing the video but I couldn´t get all in, so it´s just half the lyrics.

A Beautiful Mind is a wonderful movie and it reminds me a lot of Jonathan Crane.
And I could imagine Alex would be singing the song to him or whisper the lyrics into his ear while he´s struggling with Scarecrow.

At least this is sth. I would do..

I that the words were familiar! i love that song! ;D


now ... could you possibly explain to me why Scarcrow would want Alex's parents dead?

[fosforito]

haha okay, I´ll try:

well, Scarecrow used Jon´s sadness, anger and depression, his broken heart to finally emerge and gain 100% control over Jonathan.

Strictly speaking Scarecrow is nothing else then Jon´s dark side - the personification of his sorrow his anger and also his desire of revenge becaue he felt betrayed of all people.

So it wasn´t maybe to have THEM dead in particular but maybe they just were "poor victims" on his way of revenge you know?

Hard to explain....but I hope it makes sense somehow..

[ciaran]

"What's long and comes in pieces?" A dismantled rifle perhaps? Hmm...doesn't seem so though, but that's one theory.

She's got to speak to Jonathan about what happened or she's going to drive herself over the edge. I still don't know how she's going to manage being with Jonathan with Ducard watching her every move.

[fosforito]

Here´s the "New Year´s Chapter", chapter 31 - a longer one.

Hope you´ll like it

Chapter 31 (Presumptions)



Alexandra had realized that it was far after midnight when she had left her apartment.

She had packed a big leisure bag and strapped it on her motor-bike and a knapsack was hanging over her shoulders.

Obviously Henri haven´t found her secret compartment for her weapons because everything had been in the condition as it was before so Alexandra decided to leave the weapons at the place where they had been all the time.

The streets of Gotham were brightly illuminated but to Alexandra they neither seemed to be safe nor to be really guiding.

She didn´t take the direct way to Jonathan´s apartmant but she had taken circuituos routes, she had driven through dark narrow-lanes, she had tried to double – like a fox, trying to escape his hunters.
She had looked over her shoulder over and over again, trying to find out if someone would follow her.

Alexandra knew, her circuituous routes to Jonathan would make her trip unnecessarily long, but she knew Henri Ducard and she would think him capable of sending someone to follow her – he could even follow her by himself.

Shortly before Alexandra had arrived at Jonathan´s apartment, she had called him, asking him to open the roller gate of the building´s parking-garage for her and again Alexandra had looked over her shoulder while driving in, checking if someone would observe or even follow her, but she couldn´t see anybody.

Alexandra had felt how sore, how nervous she still was when Jonathan helped her with her bags and both took the elevator up to his apartment.

After Jonathan had closed and locked up the apartment door, the tension had fallen off Alexandra like a big charge and Jonathan had taken her into his arms without saying a word, holding her tight when suddenly Alexandra had burst into tears, shortly after they had stepped into his apartment.

Jonathan had asked Alexandra if he should prepare something to eat for her, maybe a sandwich but Alexandra wasn´t hungry at all. She had drunk a glass of whiskey to calm down and Jonathan had prepared some tea before they went to bed. All the time Alexandra barely spoke and as much as Jonathan had asked her what was wrong with her – she couldn´t talk with him about what had happened to her.

This night they didn´t had sex. Alexandra had snuggled up to Jonathan, bursting into tears over and over again and Jonathan had taken her into his arms, carressing her and trying to console her.

It broke his heart to see Alexandra like this. But just at this moment Jonathan realized that in spite of her courage she always had when she was a young girl, Alexandra also was somebody having her strong and weak points.

Jonathan always had known, how much Alexandra had tried to be strong when they had been at school together – to be strong for both of them and not to show any weakness. He had loved her for this but now, his love for her got even stronger because of her pain.

`You have suffered so much for both of us, Alex.´, Jonathan thought and kissed softly Alexandra´s hair when he noticed that she had fallen asleep in her exhaustion.

His arm was laying around her and his fingertips caressed her shoulder, Alexandra´s head rested on Jonathan´s naked chest, her hand placed on his abdomen.

`I promise you, from now on you won´t carry this burden on your shoulders all alone anymore. This time I won´t allow to get manipulated. This time I will be there, I will protect you and I will fight for us, Alex.´, Jonathan thought and he pressed Alexandra against him when he switched off the light on the nightstand with his other hand and fell asleep.

***

*"Jonathan.."*

Jonathan opened his eyes and straightened up, terryfied.

It was still dark and the moon was shining bright through the bedroom window.

*"Jonathan.."*

He heard this voice again – this voice he knew so well.

Nervously, Jonathan´s gaze moved over the bed. He noticed Alexandra next to him. She was laying on her side, her back turned towards Jonathan, sleeping deeply.

Jonathan got out of the bed and sneaked into the bathroom, trying not to make a noise.After he had locked the door, he had switched on the light. While doing this, Jonathan could feel his shaking hands and his tickling fingertips.

He knew that the injection he had given to himself in his office now started to weaken but though it was unusual that Scarecrow now had „ripped“ him out of his sleep. He never had done something like this all over the years. The last years, Scarecrow had left Jonathan in peace when he was sleeping at night. The only exception had been in the night, when Scarecrow had emerged for the first time – the night where Jonathan had believed, Alexandra had returned to him.

"What do you want, Scarecrow?", Jonathan hissed against his reflection when he propped himself on his hands at the wash basin, staring into the mirror.

*"Do you really think, I´ll stand here and watch how you throw your life away, Jonathan?"*, Scarecrow hissed. *"Do you really think, I will allow that such a biatch coming along destroys everything we have built for us over the last years?"*

Jonathan clenched his fists, so thight, that his knuckles whitened. He bended forward, gazing even more into the mirror.

"Alexandra is not a biatch just coming along, she is the woman I love.", Jonathan replied, making sure he wasn´t speaking too loud.

He could hear a light moan through the bathroom door, coming out of the bedroom. It was Alexandra, obviously moaning in her dream, probably because she was having a bad dream.

"Alexandra needs me and I need her.“ Jonathan whispered. "She is the woman of my life and I want to pass the rest of my life with her."

*"Oh, soso, now you even want to marry her?! Indeed, this is getting better and better!"*, Scarecrow puffed, when Jonathan pulled out his briefcase he had hided in the big closet of the bathroom and opened it on the sideboard next to big wash-basin. *"So what´s coming next? Now do you even want to raise a family, pushing the baby buggy all over like an idiot and changing diapers?"*

*"I was already willing to raise a family with Alexandra 12 years ago and now I´d be willing as well, if she wants to have one with me."*, Jonathan thought when he pulled out antiseptic, swabs and a small belt out of one of the cupboards.

Then he pulled a filled squirt out of his briefcase which he had brought from Arkham. Jonathan had prepared some injections for the next days and he had increased the dosage of each injection.

*"What a god-damn freak you are."*, Scarecrow yelled, when Jonathan sat down on the toilet-lid, tieing his arm and making a fist until the vein was good to see. *"I won´t allow that.."*

"You don´t have power over me anymore, Scarecrow.", Jonathan said and desinfected his arm.

He knew that Scarecrow wasn´t still strong enough now to stop him from giving himself the injection, as he did before in his office at Arkham.

Alexandra opened her eyes. She could hear her fast breath and she felt cold sweat on her forehead and her breast.

"You have disposed of my life too long already.", Jonathan said in a low voice and placed the cannula of the syringe into his vein.

Alexandra reached out her hand and she realized that the side of the bed next to her was empty.

"Jonathan?", Alexandra said softly and got out of the bed.

*"If you tell Alexandra anything of me you´ll regret this bitterly, Jonathan."*, Scarecrow yelled when Jonathan injected the serum and tied off his arm.

Jonathan pulled the syringe out of his arm again, pressing a swab on the injection area.

"It´s enough, Scarecrow, the show is over now. I don´t allow it anymore that you´re keep on manipulating me.", Alexandra could hear Jonathan´s dark voice coming out of the bathroom.

Jonathan sighed, closed his eyes and leaned his head back against the wall when he could feel the serum starting to work quickly and Scarecrow getting banned again into his dark corner.

Alexandra knocked softly on the bathroom door.

"Jonathan, are you in there? Is everything okay?", he could hear Alexandra´s voice and he opened his eyes.

`Oh, my god. By no means she must see me like this!´

"Alexandra?", Jonathan shouted and hurriedly he hided the injection tools into the cupboard again.“Just a moment, I´ll be there soon.“

Jonathan threw the used syringe into his briefcase and hided it when he could hear Alexandra´s voice again.

"Hold on a second!", Jonathan shouted, then he opened the bathroom door.

"Jon, are you okay?", Alexandra said, blinking irritated her eyes when she looked into the light of the bathroom. "I´ve heard your voice. Who were you talking to?"

"Oh, I´m sorry, love.", Jonathan stuttered when he noticed a strange expression on Alexandra´s face."I was just thinking aloud... are you okay? I ´ve heard you moaning."

Alexandra took a deep breath and wiped her hand over her forehead, still covered with cold sweat.

"I had a dream. I´ve dreamed of birds, crows I think, I don´t remember anymore..", Alexandra responded.

"It was only a dream, Alex.", Jonathan said and placed his arm around her. "Come on, let´s go back to bed."

Before Alexandra could say anything, Jonathan kissed her and flipped off the light.

"Okay.", she finally said and she let it happen when Jonathan took her into his arms and carried her back to the bed.

[blue]

Ohh she heard him talking to Scarecrow. That's never good. I want to know what happens when she finds out about Scarecrow!

At least Jonathan killed off Scarecrow for a while. No one can beat the Jonathan Crane. (Batman doesn't count).

Muahah.

[azina]

yay!! a new chapter. it's nice to see Jonathan taking care of Alex and realizing she's been shouldering a heavy burden for both of them all this time by being the strong one. But it's so sweet him being there for her you know? Interesting the dialogue going on between Jonathan and Scarecrow and your medical knowledge is starting to payoff I see. Interesting how Alex sensed some of the tension going on with her nightmare with the crows. Very cool.

[blue-eyed struck]

I'm glad to see Jonathan being the strong caretaker in the relationship for once. And boy is he sweet! Scarecrow is just getting scarier and more impatient. I don't want to know what he's capable of doing if Jonthan tells Alex about him. It seems things are heading that way anyway. Being how they're soulmates and somewhat telepathic, Alex dreaming of crows and then hearing Jonathan say, "Scarecrow" in the bathroom is a big giveaway. GREAT chapter Alex. *Cillian Bar*

[beyond_beautiful]

Man, this story is getting really good. I love how Jonathan is starting to take control over Scarecrow

[fosforito]

awww.. thank you girl

so what do you people think?

do you think that Jon and Alex are getting too sweet somehow?

or is it maybe just a natural human reaction to the years of torture?

[blue]

Definitely not. They've both lived troubling, lonesome lives miles apart, hardened by their forced separation, separation from others through their independent jobs and required secrecy. They've found the happiness they once had, and they've now been able to put their past aside and love another as they once did.

I think it's wonderful

[fosforito]

I like your comment, Blue.

How about you, other readers?

What do you think?

[beyond_beautiful]

I don't think they are getting to sweet.

I think it is a "natural human reaction to the years of torture"

[ciaran]

You already know my position on this Alex, I don't think they're getting too sweet personally. The other person is the one person that each of them can count on, something from their former lives that is pure and good, so I think it's natural for them to act this way. Of course if they were always happy-go-lucky I'd say you're getting too sweet, but you seem to keep a good balance with conflict and chaos one moment and tender moments.

I noticed as well that Jonathan is steadily increasing the doses for scarecrow. How long before he can't up the dose anymore and then what happens then? Scarecrow is getting stronger and I'm afraid of what will happen when Alex talks to Jon about the death of her family on their trip (if that's when she decides to bring it up).

The dream feels like it could be great foreshadowing to a climactic event, good job.

[fosforito]

awww, thank you thank you, Ciaran

indeed, I was a bit unsecure but you girls encourage me somehow and you answered my question that I start to believe I´m on the right way somehow balancing all out.

thanx for all your comments girls