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Post by bunnie24 on May 17, 2012 16:55:39 GMT -5
because...i don't know.
maybe i'm just hormonal...I'm upset cause I'm getting no hours at work...
or maybe it's because of my brother being a total dumb a$$...I seriously can't wait until my parents ship him to stay with my uncle...seriously.
I'm just upset, and I don't know why. Can I have a hug?
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Post by Zombiekitten on May 17, 2012 17:45:52 GMT -5
Oh... I know days like this too, Bunnie... being upset but not knowing exactly why.   So.... BIG FAT HUG |
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Post by bunnie24 on May 17, 2012 18:21:21 GMT -5
*hugs back*
I just...yeah..I'm nearly 20 still having hormonal issues like my 14 year old self...
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Post by bunnie24 on May 17, 2012 23:23:09 GMT -5
and I don't know what it is but I hate my friends right now--like to the point where I want to delete my Event on Facebook for my birthday and then not return any of their texts or calls--and then delete them off facebook...
what's wrong with me!?!? *cries*
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Post by The Phantom Lady on May 18, 2012 2:06:38 GMT -5
Aw Bunnie, you deserve the biggest hug in history!
I get that too, for me its part of my depression... maybe you need to talk to someone you can really talk to? do you have someone you trust?
I hate to see you like that
here, have another hug!
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Post by bunnie24 on May 18, 2012 22:32:43 GMT -5
And what's worse is that's it's all escalated and now my friends are suffering for all these feelings that I'm having.
They're all fighting and blaming each other because I'm either REALLY upset, or pissed off to the point that I am ready to punch one of them. And they just don't understand that they did nothing wrong, I'm just paranoid and stressed about everything else...and I feel that they're all against me.
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Post by The Phantom Lady on May 19, 2012 0:41:52 GMT -5
Perhaps you should tell your friends what you're going through? Thats always something I wish I could do with my friends...
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Post by bunnie24 on May 19, 2012 14:28:10 GMT -5
I've tried, but they're so blinded by blaming each other...plus they keep asking "what did we do!?"
and they don't get that I'm just angry.
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Post by Cait on May 19, 2012 14:49:35 GMT -5
Bunnie. *hugs* I think after everything you've been through lately that it's only normal to feel upset for seemingly no reason. Stress is so bad for you, and can drive you crazy. So perhaps you just have a low tolerance for stress right now, and are on edge as a result. I'm sorry that your friends aren't listening to you, and aren't understanding. As your friends, they should be making you feel better, not worse. I swear that some people can't survive without drama in their lives. I avoid it at all costs, but of course it doesn't always work. Next time they ask you, "What did we do?", tell them they've done nothing - you're just going through a hard time, and need them to be supportive. If they still feel the need to blame each other, then I would just ignore them until they get over it, and just focus on yourself. Your well being is much more important!  |
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Post by wikkleshamrocks on May 19, 2012 19:56:09 GMT -5
*Another hug* Awww Bunz When it rains it pours, it's a horrible feeling when you are down and so tied up in knots you don't know where it's coming from or why and how you can fix it. Sometimes we get so anxious from things we don't see consciously building up. It's always the subconscious crap that sneaks in and does the most damage. You have been through a lot of stress lately with health, mental and emotional, you are most probably just bleeding that out. Oh and the hormones can play a huge part too! It's easier said than done but it sounds like you need to have some quiet times and reflect. Not just an hour or two, but a good month or two of getting back to what truly makes you happy and some gentle things. It's time to shut the doors (nicely) and concentrate on your little voice that's getting drowned out by all the loud incoming crap! oh... I just had one of those de ja vu thingies... ugh they freak me out! LOL 
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Post by The Phantom Lady on May 21, 2012 6:11:54 GMT -5
I'm not extremely unhappy, just worried...
Today I found out a girl who I go to the program for young people on benefits with also got accepted to the secretary school... I'm so afraid everyone will be like her... she looked at me like I was dirt... what if I will be that lonely girl again? UGH
At least two of my friends live in the town I'll be moving to, so that's something!
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Post by bunnie24 on May 21, 2012 13:54:47 GMT -5
Aww--nevermind that chick! She'll probably fall into a ditch...eventually.
But I'm pissed--yet again, I have been since Thursday; why is that surprising!? Two of my 'friends' who I thought were my best friends...bi**hed and moaned about "NO...i don't like that restaurant" or "NO...I don't want to go see that movie, it looks stupid!!" and then today they were like "SO...uh, I don't think I'll be able to make it to the movie--or the dinner...is that okay?"
...if I disappear for the rest of my days I'll be in a mental institute for going crazy and killing both of them...seriously!!!! And after all the fracking hoops I jumped through just so they could be happy...
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Post by Cait on May 21, 2012 20:59:10 GMT -5
Ugggh, I'm so sorry Bunnie. I absolutely hate it when people agree to do something and then don't follow through. Honestly, why did they say they would go in the first place if they were just going to back out of it? I don't blame you for being angry. Not one bit. If I were you, I'd tell them to take a hike, but in much harsher words than that!
*HUGS*[/size]
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Post by The Phantom Lady on May 22, 2012 2:25:03 GMT -5
I second what Cait said here, Bunnie! It's just awful when friends act like that!
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Post by The Phantom Lady on May 31, 2012 11:39:32 GMT -5
I may have an ulcer (I'm only 22...)
I'm going to have gastroscopy done on the 18th and I'm trying so hard not to worry but my doctor was very wary about putting me through that so it's making me a bit nervous...
The good news is that if it is an ulcer I've dealt with since January I should be able to be cured with antibiotics! I guess I will have to think about that during the procedure
I can't believe I've been in all this pain for 5 months now... UGH!
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