In statu nascendi (ch.39 up) - sequel to ATTFABH

[azina]

I think an experience like that is enough to warp anyone's psyche and compound that with the loss of a child ... then the death of last of your family ... oh yeah, the love of your life (who happens to be the father of your child) killed them too.

[blue]

You have to wonder how things would be going if they hadn't raped her..

[azina]

well, obviously she would have had the child ... but would she still be suffering from her injuries and amnesia? would she have lost her family from Jonathan? that would be another story completely

[blue]

Wow too many ways to branch off. Ill stop before my head starts to spin

[blue-eyed struck]

wow! I just read it! So much intensity.. so much anger! Exceptionally written! *exalt*

Don't you dare take too long for the next Chapter! I'm dying to see what happens next!

[fosforito]

Whoa , thank your for your responses, girls and also for the exalts.

I´m very happy to hear that you liked the chapter so much although it was a hard one. It was also hard one for me to write, that´s why I needed to much time...

No, don´t worry..

the next at least 3 chapters won´t take that long (coz 2 are ready already and the third one - the next one - will follow soon.)

Maybe I ´ll post it tonight already...

[blue]

*hehehh* Cabin scene coming up

[fosforito]

hmm.. who knows ;-)

blue said:

*hehehh* Cabin scene coming up

[blue]

You said it would be! It better be coming up *threatening evil laugh* Hahah jk.

[fosforito]

shhhhhhhh....

.. no spoilers please...


haha ;D

blue said:

You said it would be! It better be coming up *threatening evil laugh* Hahah jk.

[blue]

-- Mmmmf.

[fosforito]

... you still don´t know anything...

...just enjoy the next chapters

blue said:

-- Mmmmf.

[blue-eyed struck]

if you post it.. we will enjoy it!

[blue]

Yeah, really! *looks at watch*

[fosforito]

Now, here´s the chapter 10!

Hope you enjoy and please don´t forget to leave feedback!

Chapter 10 (The Message)


Dr. Jonathan Crane had passed a restless night.

After his phone call with Carmine Falcone he had gotten up to drink something. He had been very tired and he had felt the need of sleep. He felt as if he hadn´t slept for days.

Jonathan knew, he had suffered a nervous breakdown and because of his medical knowledge, he knew that physical exhaustion was often a after-effect of it.

Normally it wouldn´t have been necessary in his case but Jonathan decided to take a sedative this night to allow himself to rest and to sleep until the next day without dreaming, if this was possible at all.

His substitution Dr. Stone would take care of his patients today, too, so Jonathan could do the office work he still needed to do.

He had fallen asleep again, but he didn´t had the dreamless night he was hoping for.

He remembered blurred thoughts and pictures. He had dreamt of his mother, of his father – his real father. He had dreamt of Alexandra, of blood, of screams. He had dreamt of a baby, of a knife, he had dreamt of a throbbing heart.

But all these pictures and thoughts had been very blurry and receded into a dim distance when Jonathan got up and walked into the bathroom.

"Good morning, Mrs. Nichols.", Dr. Jonathan Crane said while leaning against the doorway of her office.

Mrs. Nichols was typing something over her computer and gazed up when she could hear the dark voice of her boss.

"Oh, good morning, Dr. Crane!", she said and smiled lightely.

She stealed a glance at the big clock, hanging over the doorway. It was 11:30 a.m.

`He never arrived that late.´, flashed through Mrs.Nichols´mind.

"Do you feel better, Dr. Crane?", she asked to break up the arkward silence.

"Oh yes I do, thank you for asking.", Jonathan responded. "I think, I just needed to sleep."

Indeed, he was a very busy man.

Usually he was always one of the first ones coming to Arkham in the morning and he also was one the last ones leaving in the evening. Usually he slept about 6 hours at night, but last night he slept almost 10 hours. Jonathan wasn´t aware, how much his body obviously needed that rest. Or was it all because of Alexandra?

Dr. Crane was torn out of his thoughts when Mrs. Nichols passed him several pieces of paper.

„There you have all phone calls from yesterday and today in the morning, doctor“, she explained while Dr. Crane´s gaze wandered over the pieces of paper.

`Hm, nothing really important.´, Jonathan thought, sighing lightely, then he said good-bye to Mrs. Nichols and stepped into his office.

He placed his briefcase on his desk while pressing the flashing knob of his phone to listen to the answering machine.

„You have received 5 new messages.“, he could hear the female voice of his answering machine. „First new message, receives on Monday, 14th of October, 2:45 p.m...“

Jonathan stood next to his window, gazing out lost in his thoughts. He didn´t really listened when one new message after the other was played.

`Patient appointments, colleague requests, blah blah blah´, Jonathan thought while he gazed out of the window.

„Fifth new message.. received today at 02:34 a.m...“

„Hello?! Jonathan?!.. This is Alexandra!“

Jonathan gasped and he flipped around, staring at the phone, unbelieving.

„Please, we need to talk, Jon! Jonathan!?"

Then he could hear a clickling noise.

„End of new messages.“

Jonathan dumped forward to the phone, pressing the knobs wildely to listen to the message again. He didn´t use the answering machine that much and he cursed when he didn´t find the proper knob at once. Jonathan could feel his knees giving way and he fell into his chair. His hands trembled and tears were filling his eyes when he listened to Alexandra´s message over and over again.

„She is alive! My God, she is alive!“,Jonathan shouted and he felt himself smiling in relief. But then he could feel the rage coming up inside him.

„Scarecrow, you damn bastard! Why did you let me go on believing that Alexandra is dead?!“, he screamed and punched the table-top.

* „What difference would have this made? Do you really think she would still like to see you if she would know, what you have done to her family?“*

„You had blamed me for her death! But you only wanted me to become a murderer! You have used me, Scarecrow! You lied to me and you betrayed me the entire time!“, Jonathan shouted and jumped out off his chair.

* “That´s not true! You didn´t want to accept that Alexandra had abandoned you. This is why you wanted to take revenge! I never abandoned you, I was always there for you. I have shown you all what you have today, what you are today. I am you, Jonathan! And you are mine!“*

„Never!“, Jonathan yelled, then he gripped the Chinese Ming vase standing on the window-still and threw it over his desk. The vase hit the wall and broke with a big noise.

„I will never be yours! And I won´t allow you to seperate me and Alexandra ever again!“, he screamed, then he gripped his briefcase, dumped forward to the door and left his office.

Mrs. Nichols could hear Jonathan Crane screaming and she was on her way to his office when he approached.

„Dr. Crane, is everything....?“, she started.

„Mrs. Nichols, cancel everything for today, whatever it is!“, he said aloud, passing by in a hurry.

Mrs. Nichols gazed after him when the doctor left the room without a word.

Jonathan realized, Alexandra didn´t said anything but he knew where to find her.