In statu nascendi (ch.39 up) - sequel to ATTFABH

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the scarecrow! Damn him! Alex already knows that Jonathan murdered her family though, right?

It's bitter sweet how much they need eachother! They must be soulmates. I mean Jonathan dreamt what Alex went through! (nice touch btw)

Could you possibly post the next chapter! *begs* I skipped school today and now I'm bored! I really want to read the rest of this!

[azina]

Oh, wow! It's like Jonathan had a telepathic connection with Alex with what happened the night before while he was dreaming ... but he also experienced that once before, during the actual rape. It is like they are bonded, spiritually and physically somehow. Wow, this story just gets even better and somehow I can see Scarecrow getting very angry at losing control of Jonathan.

[fosforito]

Hi to all!

Now, here´s chapter 11 for you!

Note: this chapter contains light sexual content.

As always the website link aaand as always: please leave feedback! :-)

Enjoy

Chapter 11 (The Ruines)

Alexandra had driven to her „new home“ with her motorbike after calling Jonathan and had fallen asleep.

After a few restless hours, dreaming of Jonathan she got up, took a shower and put fresh clothes on„ her colleagues“ had deposited for her in the apartment.

After Alexandra had checked her apartment to find the right place to hide her weapons there, she decided to return to the place of her former life.

First she had driven over to her parent´s house – there, where she had kissed Jonathan for the last time. There, where she had given him her necklace. There, where they could embrace each other for the last time, before she was torn from his life.

The house was still there. It was still habitable. Alexandra could her a noise made by children. The house was used as a day-nursery now.

Alexandra had parked her motorbike nearby the forest and had continued her way by walking. She crossed the small footbridge and passed by the small glade, too.

`12 years! And it seems to me that it all would have happened yesterday.´, Alexandra thought.

She didn´t turn into the small path leading to the cabin. Alexandra kept on going straight ahead. She wanted to walk to the roofed bench. She wanted to remember everything once again – herself, she wanted to remember Jonathan, she wanted to remember their love for each other, their sorrow.

Alexandra could feel a stitch in her heart, when she looked at the roofed bench. It was weather-beaten, rotten, decayed. The beams were still standing, but the roof had broken down and the wood got brittled and fragile. Her fingertips touched the beams and moved gently over the brittled wood.

Alexandra could see Jonathan in front of her again, wet of the rain, his face close to hers. She could still feel his hot breath, she felt his lips, his kisses, his touches. Alexandra could feel a tear running down her face.

`Why? Jonathan? Why?´, she thought, wiping the tear out of her face.

Hanging her head, Alexandra walked back over the small way of the forest, the way both had taken to the cabin, when the weather got worse.

Did she really wanted to do this to herself? Did she really wanted to remember all, that hurted her so much?

`I keep on going just one moment more, even if I think, I can´t stand it any more.´, she thought. `Then I know I´m able to suffer everything. To suffer everything, what was and to suffer everything, what will be.´.

Alexandra turned into the small path heading to the cabin. When she arrived there, she could feel her heart getting heavy. The cabin was a ruine now. Obviously it had been a fire inside once because besides of two walls the cabin was burned down almost completely. Alexandra stepped into the cabin through its former door. Chared wood was lying everywhere, even the floor was partially burned down and the stillexistingg walls were sooty.

`Not even this remained to us. Not even this...´, Alexandra thought and sighed heavily.

Alexandra had spread out her coat on the floor of the cabin. She had taken a seat and had stared into the tree-tops over the former roof for a long time.

Then she got up to have a look at that, was have been remained of the cabin. Her hands moved over the splintered and partially chared wood. She walked over to the place where the storage room had been, where she had changed her clothes. She could remember it as if it has been yesterday. Alexandra walked over to the place where the kitchen of the cabin had been. In her thoughts she could see Jonathan standing next to the oven, preparing the tea. She could see his naked body, his skin gleaming in the light of the oil lamp. Oh, she could remember it all so well!

Softly, even lovingly Alexandra´s fingers moved over the partially rusty oven. She looked next to herself. Here they have had their rest for the night. Here, Jonathan and Alexandra made love for the first time. Here, Jonathan had lost his virginity to her. Here, Alexandra conceived his child. The child, she should never have.

Alexandra could feel a stitching pain in her heart, then she stepped forward and crouched down slowly. Her fingers touched the dusty and muddy ground.

She could see the night, the night they spent together.

She could see Jonathan, so beautiful, so soft, not knowing what to do. She could see herself guiding him, after he had entered her. She could see themselves moving together. Alexandra could feel the passion, the desire.

After all these years she could still feel Jonathan inside of her, she could still smell him, taste his skin, she could still hear his moans. She still felt his hot breath on her skin, she still felt his movements, his touches. She could still taste his salty tears on her lips.

Alexandra closed her eyes. It was long ago. It was another time. It was in another life.

`I have to start a new life.´, Alexandra thought.

After seeing each other at the court yesterday morning and after her message last night it was now clear to Alexandra, it has to be a new life without Jonathan. And spite of her feelings for him, she knew, why she had come back. She knew what she had wanted to do and what she had had to do.

Suddenly Alexandra could hear a cracking noise and opened her eyes. She gazed around, but she couldn´t see anything. It had sounded like a cracking twig or branch. But now she couldn´t hear anything but the wind blowing through the tree-tops and the fallen leaves of the approaching fall.

`Maybe it was just my imagination.´, she thought, but then she could hear the cracking noise again.

Again, Alexandra gazed around but first she couldn´t see anything. Then, she could hear another noise coming from the direction where the door of the cabin was.

She turned around- and then she saw him.

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dun dun DUNNNN! hahah

[blue-eyed struck]

^lol..

I'm so torn between which one I should feel more sorry for! They've both had such heart-rending incidents. I know this story obviously involves the scarecrow, but to me, it's such a heartbreaking and beautiful love story.

I don't even need to say it, you already know I'm waiting impatiently for the next CH.

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I feel worse for Jonathan. He was decieved, he now has to survive with the guilt that he killed her family, and she's come back from the dead to him and he's going nuts. Poor guy.

[fosforito]

Seems they both have their issues going on...

so, are you guy ready for the next chapter then?

This might sweeten your weekend a bit..

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PLEASE! I need something to DO! I'm watching Crane scenes in Batman frame by frame.... so... slow... Hehheh I can make out what he's saying.... mister.... finch...

[blue-eyed struck]

I may not be logged in, but I keep refreshing this page!

[fosforito]

ahaaaaa - GOTCHA, hehe ;D

flygirl00 said:

I may not be logged in, but I keep refreshing this page!

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Just post the thing already! *rips out hair* Heheh. As you can see, I'm reeeeeeeally bored.

[fosforito]

Okay ladies, here´s the "weekend chapter" No. 12!!

BEWARE!! IMPORTANT!

This chapter is R rated and contains .. well. you´ll see
So please, have this in mind! I can´t take any responsibility for possible harm this chapter might have on you!!!


Well, I hope you enjoy it though and as usual: leave feedback!

Chapter 12 (Phoenix from the Ashes)

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It was Jonathan!

Alexandra gasped. She noticed, that in comparisom to yesterday morning he wasn´t wearing his glasses anymore. Alexandra wanted to say something, anything, but she couldn´t. She wanted to raise up, but her legs were as heavy as lead.

Jonathan gazed at Alexandra without saying anything. She knew this gaze. She had noticed this gaze once before. She noticed it – in the night they´ve spent together. It wasn´t a gaze of anger of sadness. It was a gaze of endless longing, it was a gaze of desire.

Alexandra could feel her heart throbbing fast. Jonathan opened his lips, as if he wanted to say anything, but he didn´t. He stepped into the cabin and Alexandra managed it to rise up finally. She could hear Jonathan panting lightly.

Alexandra was unable to move, when Jonathan walked towards her in fast steps. Then he grabbed her forcefully and started to kiss her wildely. Alexandra let it happen and placed her arms around Jonathan´s hips.

„Where have you been all the time?", Jonathan whispered, when he gripped Alexandra´s hair and pulled her head back. Wildely, he kissed her cheek, her throat and her neck.

„Oh Jonathan.. please don´t..", Alexandra whispered panting and closed her eyes.

„Where have you been? Where have you been?", Jonathan whispered over and over again between his kisses. On her throat, on her neck, on her breast still covered with cloth, on her cheek, on her mouth.

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He saw Alexandra in front of him, sweating, panting and trembling. She swallowed hard and her eyes filled up with tears. Jonathan´s hand touched her forehead and caressed her. His fingers ran softly through her hair. His lips brushed hers. Alexandra felt herself crying.

„Welcome home.", Jonathan whispered and kissed her softly.

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[blue-eyed struck]

Hey.. Am I typing ok? Is what am I writing legible? My computer screen is fogged up, so I can't see very clearly! Damn you Alex. I have to be at work in 10 min. and now I'm going to have those scenes in my head the whole time! Thanks. Thanks alot!!

[fosforito]

oops.. I´m sorry.

but you all knew this would come, didn´t you? ;D

So people tell me what do you think about it so far and what do you think would happen..

flygirl00 said:

Hey.. Am I typing ok? Is what am I writing legible? My computer screen is fogged up, so I can't see very clearly! damn you Alex. I have to be at work in 10 min. and now I'm going to have those scenes in my head the whole time! Thanks. Thanks alot!!

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Cabin scene in a straightjacket lmao