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Post by The Phantom Lady on Jun 8, 2012 2:41:49 GMT -5
Alisa, you don't need to worry at all, you came across as caring to me!
I just called them today and asked them to change my time to an afternoon appointment and she was very understanding... The thing is, not only will it give me a bad rep if I start skipping classes that soon... but if they somehow find out how much I skipped school in 9th grade, like they told my highschool about it, I'll be in trouble... Also, since its a huge new place I fear I will never find my classes if I show up around 11am... so it really had to be changed
Cait, I am sure it's going to go great and will be a huge memory for you!
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Post by bunnie24 on Jun 11, 2012 13:19:42 GMT -5
I'm getting kinda self conscious about my body...like seriously.
I've been obsessively looking at pictures of Elizabeth Olsen wondering why I can't be that pretty...and I keep telling myself that it's not worth it but at the same time..*cries*
somebody hold me?
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Post by The Phantom Lady on Jun 11, 2012 13:29:37 GMT -5
Bunnie, the picture I remember seeing of you was beautiful! You don't need to look like anyone else!
*Big hug*
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Post by Zombiekitten on Jun 11, 2012 16:44:20 GMT -5
Haven't we women all that problem of doubting our beauty.... (or at least many of us. Don't want to speak for all LOL)
Speaking for me, I have this problem too... Very strongly. And although it's only subjective, it is still torturing us women. Probably it's because of the media telling us what is pretty and sexy, but I don't want to condemn them entirely. LOL
I also think, in my case at least, it has a lot to do with self confidence. I'm full of self doubt and also because of my looks. Sometimes I dream about looking stunningly sexy and I imagine that my life would be better, for my self confidence would be bigger with being sexy and beautiful.
But of course that's all bullsh*t LOL My rationality gets it, but not the other parts LOL
*grabs Bunnie and hugs her beautiful body and kisses her pretty face* (Not meant to sound somehow suggestive LOL)
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Post by wikkleshamrocks on Jun 11, 2012 17:54:35 GMT -5
You know what... Elizabeth most definitely will be beating herself up about how she looks too. We all do it. It's a horrible thing to feel, I know. Also, the media in all it's shapes and forms including films etc always have enhanced stuff, lighting tech and make-up a plenty to make us mortals look heavenly. It's one big con. You would be amazed at how people are transformed into 'perfect' shapes and images. Bunz you are a very pretty and healthy looking girl with a fantastic figure! Don't you go trying to change yourself by trying to look like an image that is not real. Even Elizabeth would tell you that herself if she's half a woman! When I was a performer in the ice-skating shows, there were girls going to horrific lengths to keep their weight down because they got weighed everyday, especially the big shows with huge company (chorus line) skaters. If they were over weight just a little they would get fined, seriously. Girls eating nothing but rice cakes, all bran, cotton wool, laxatives. There was anorexia and bulimia and this sh*t still goes on today across the performing circuit from ballet to modelling. I was lucky because I am very small and didn't do the chorus stuff, however I did get kicked off a show for being too small (huge disagreement with the promoter and producer) - find me a pairs adagio skater who isn't small!!!  I was the talk of the century. It was devastating. It seems that no one is happy with the human form in all it's wonderful glory and all it can do. I think it's time to celebrate our curves, shapes of all sizes and abilities and stop letting all this false pretentious and obsolete indoctrination of what is deemed beautiful ruin lives. If you learn to love yourself, yourself will love you back. There's one thing that I would promote however, which is to look after our bodies by eating healthy and feeding our 'temples' with lots of ground grown goodness! In other words, spend your money on a bag of apples instead of a lying magazine full of distorted images!  |
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Post by bunnie24 on Jun 11, 2012 21:01:49 GMT -5
I try to ignore myself...but then one morning I wake up...and I feel sexy and my hair is perfect...and yeah, until I look in the mirror and I realize that I still have a double chin--and my cheeks are fat...and I see my stretch marks. And I hate myself, starve myself for a few days...and then realize how stupid I am. I have a picture of Marilyn Monroe next to my bathroom mirror for a reason, but sometimes I ignore her. Sometimes I relax, but then other days I feel like I'm the main girl from that show, GIRLS... and then i get pissed off because I feel disgusting.  I know at some point we all feel insecure; but my insecurities never hit me until I was out of high school. |
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Post by The Phantom Lady on Jun 13, 2012 2:56:12 GMT -5
I don't want to go through gastroscopy on Monday
I am just getting so worried... I mean who wants a tube down their throat? and they will take tests, like clip stuff out of my already sore and irritated stomach.... Plus I can't eat anything for 6 hours... and if I don't eat I learned my pains get so, so much worse
I know if I don't do this, they won't find out if its an ulcer... and if it is an ulcer they can cure me in like 7 days with antibiotics
I am just freaking out about this... plus I can't take my acid reducing pills during this week, so far it's going all right but I'm just so afraid I will have another 18 hour attack
*deep breathing*
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Post by wikkleshamrocks on Jun 13, 2012 7:00:12 GMT -5
I hate to be the bearer of bad news Bunz but even at 38 and past that we still battle with insecurities! It's a constant battle we have to endure. It's all about focusing on the right stuff, not unreality and celebrating what we are blessed with. |
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Post by Jinx on Jun 14, 2012 20:31:45 GMT -5
I'm sorry to bother you guys with this but I need it out of my system...
So, I have this friend, whom I consider like my big brother. We both work on a free World of Warcraft server as Game Masters. Tonight we were casually chatting on a public channel in game, fooling around and joking with the players, when he miss spelled something. I corrected him with a smiley face (I'm kind of a grammar nazi when it comes to french) and then he just said he had to go, and he disconnected. I sent him a text message to ask what was wrong, he didn't reply for ten minutes, then he said something like "I just hate when someone corrects me in public. My stupid pride is telling me to leave, so I'm just going to walk in the park and punch a tree. Consider yourself lucky that you are one of my closest friends, because if you weren't, I'd have thrown at your face all the things I don't like about you and what you've said and done that hurt me."
Here I am now, at a loss for words. I live by the philosophy that says "don't do to others what you don't want others to do to you" and I'm doing the best I can to be nice, polite and helpful to everyone. I've always behaved like a civilized person, I respect all the people I talk with. My friends are the most precious thing I have and I'm feeling very bad because I've hurt him.
But on the other hand, it was just a grammar correction... I felt so bad I told my best friend, who is dating him, and now I wish I didn't because she's mad at him. I have the stupid feeling that everybody's mad because of me.
It is unbelievable that a tiny detail like that is now the cause of such chaos. I'm feeling so bad because of what I've done and I can't help but think about what he said, "Consider yourself lucky that you are one of my closest friends, because if you weren't, I'd have thrown at your face all the things I don't like about you and what you've said and done that hurt me." I can't think of a single thing I've said or done to him that could've hurt him.
I just don't know what to do...
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Post by emma286 on Jun 15, 2012 11:54:09 GMT -5
Hey there Jinx. Im really sorry to hear about that. Sound s to me like he was being a bit over sensitive, and read thing s into what you said that weren't there. Maybe he d had a bad day, was already in a negative mood over something else, and that's why he over reacted. Maybe its worth letting him cool off for a day or two, then messaging him again to explain you meant no offence. Just a suggestion anyways. Hope things can soon be sorted out. Sorry to hear about that again.
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Post by The Phantom Lady on Jun 15, 2012 14:09:34 GMT -5
I am trying so hard not to worry about the Gastroscopy on Monday, but now my throat is starting to get sore... Ugh, a sore throat and having a tube showed down your throat... OW
And I know my mother was only trying to joke with me when she told me that they did something similar to her when I was born and she felt like it was karma... But I can't help wonder if she actually means it
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Post by The Phantom Lady on Jun 18, 2012 14:08:27 GMT -5
It did hurt, and it still does 8 hours later... I don't think they managed to numb me enough so I was gagging so, so badly...
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Post by bunnie24 on Jun 18, 2012 15:04:05 GMT -5
well HEY...at least it's over, yeah?
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Post by The Phantom Lady on Jun 18, 2012 15:12:42 GMT -5
I'm still dealing with the after effects... plus they found nothing wrong with my stomach... which unless the tests they took prove otherwise it's not ulcers...
If it is ulcers I can be treated with a 7 day antibiotics cure and be absolutely fine within that week...
And knowing there is a so called breath test they could have done... UGH
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Post by The Phantom Lady on Jun 19, 2012 1:48:44 GMT -5
I'm just not sure it's only an acidic tummy, I couldn't take my acid blockers for 7 days and I couldn't feel a difference... plus I saw red sores on the walls of my stomach... I can't see it could be anything else...
My friend just told me she's broken up with her boyfriend... I've wanted her to do that for ages because I know she didn't love him and he was trying to make her do stuff she wasn't ready for (stuff like marriage and children...)
The poor girl is devastated, she's now clever enough to know it was the right thing to do because she's too young... I just feel awful for her because she's so sad... she really did like the guy
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I was the talk of the century. It was devastating. 
